Diary1

How could this be?
I never thought that I would be on this way or feel such feelings.
I don't like it!
Should I cry? May I cry?
Does it all deserve the tears?
I don't want to end all of this, I really don't. No, that's like a hell for me.
I adore the moment, and the moment maker.

Once I've been tied up, I will not go anywhere. I promise you and myself. I will always keep my way on you and try to build a high and strong wall in my heart to avoid seeing other disturbance.

But sometimes ........... I must face a really hard condition. I feel like I am nothing, I am invisible, I am nobody, I am not an essential one. When I am on this condition, all I can do is just staying on positive mind, try not to thing negatively. But actually that hurts me so. No, I don't tell you about it since I don't want you to be worried. I acted as if there were nothing happen. I just think about your pleasure and secure.

See, I was always okay when everything wasn't okay around us.

Do I adore you for all my life? I don't think so, my dear. But I know, for this time, I cannot grab another feeling except you. Is it same as you?